chi shod?

nemidoonam chi shod? tasmimesh az koja oomad? kodoom badi jahate afkaresho avaz kard? baad bood ya nasim? ya shayadam tars. az? az in hame nergye voojjoode man. az dashtane chizi ke it was too good to be true. tars az inke ba man bashe bayad hame chize digaro bezare kenar. tars az dadane ghodrat . adame bartari.
ina hame khoobe! tarsam dare. koja didi ye dokhtari ro hame bekhan ama oon khod dari kone va be kasi mahal nazare? koja didi dokhtari az zibayish be onvane ye harbe negah estefade nakone?koja didi dokhtari ham shangool bashe ham khanoom? koja dokhtari tamame mehresho be pat mirize?
az ina taajob nemikonam. motejebam ke baz hesab behem rast gofto behesh tavajoh nakardam. yadete behem migofty ziad fek mikoni? yadete behem migofty hame chizo pichide mikoni? akhe pichidaast!!!! akhe ajibe!!! yeki ye shabe tasmimesh avaz she???? yeki enghad betarse ke tars tammame manteghe 40 salasho tahte shoa gharar bede? kheili pichidast yeki ke behet mige cheghad to khoobi telefono bezare zamino dige zangam nazane. del tang shodan nemikham goore babaye deltangi! mardi ci shod? marda koja raftan??? chera harchi naghesol aghle namarde gire ma miad? yeki nist bege 40 sal tanhai behet yad nadad naro nazdike dokhtare mardom o ba delam barat tang shodan goftanash ghalbesho navazesh nade?bad yeho tasmim begir ke na ino nemikham ama behesham nemigam chera nemikham.
bazam khoshhalam ke khodam boodam. sadegh boodam. khodam boodam hata age bad boodam. paak boodamo bi eshtebah. paaak. ba ye ghalbe mehraboon ke mitoone koohe sangie harkasio be larzesh dar are.
az to miporsam: hata age be khodaye man eteghad nadari, vaghean 40 sal tajrobe behet sabet nakarde ba har dast bedi ba hamoon dast migiri?