Az bachegiam ziad khatere nadaram. Faghat behem goftan do salam bood ke hame khoonamoon boodan va mano gom karde boodan o donbalam migashtan. Belakhare mano zire ye sandali peida kardan ke neshaste boodam gerye mikaram. shenidi chi goftam? do salam bood? Bad az oon mamanam mige koli tab mikardam . Ina az vaghty shoooroo shode bood ke asbab bazie jadid man, zendegie man ke bedoone oon nemikham don bashe, kasi ke hazarem joonamo bedam age bedoonam khoshbakht mishe be donya oomade bood. Hich chizi too donya be andazeye khaharam doost nadaram. Yani migam ke, mikham donya nabashe age oon nabashe. Mamanam mige hameye familaye babam migoftan na man ye chize dige am .... zendegie man be andazeye man khoshgel niist. vase hamin tamame energy sho gozashte ke eshghe man ghose nakhore. vaghty migam tamame energy yani tamame energy . yani ta in rooze roozesh , davamoon ke beshe poshte oone. delesh ghanj mire vase oon . manam doost dare ha. ama bishtar mayeye eftekharesham ta gooshte tanesh. az oon be bad har ki too zendegim oomad tarsidam ta adame jadidi bebine mano bezare va bere. In tarsbood va hich vaght haghighi nashod. CHera? chon nazashtam beshe. CHon age negah az room bar dashte shod, boridam . gozashtam raftam ta majboor nasham tb konam ye roozi ya zire sandalie zendegi ghayem sham. Hasoodi nist. age kasi az gol behesh nazok tar bege, zendegisho siah mikonam. Ama ye jayi khodamam yeki mikhastam ke behesh eshgh bede , neshoon bede ke nafasesh be nafase man bande va ghose ke mikhoram bande ghalbesh milarze. delesh enghadr baram tang she ke biad yehooyi baghaam kone o hichi nage. Man manie negaho aghooshe eshgh ro khoob baladam. Goosheye cheshmi behesh negah konan mifahmam ta tahe gharnie chi mige. tamame omramo gozashtam in khala' ro por konam. zood vabaste mishodam o khoda khoda mikardam man tamoome zendegishoon besham zood va mano vel nakonan. KHoda albate in vasat kam nazashta. Be hagh begam , too zendegie hich kasi in ghadr vaght vase mojeze nazashte ke vase man gozashte. Arezooyi nist ke be saram biad o anjam nashe. Sade begam, delam baroon bekhad shahrro az khoshk sali dar miare o taghyir bekhab shahre zire abbbb mibare az seil. SHokr mikonam ke hich ja tanham nazasht har chand kheili ghor zadam behesh.. Ama khob bachast dige . 2 saleshe . Az ame o khale eshgh nemikhad. Az madaresh mikhad. Az zani ke negashesh Tanha arameshe zendegishe.