I hope I have made the right decision

donbale gorg bayad begardi.man ooni nistam ke to mikhai. bayad begardi yekio peida koni ke aramesh nade behet. hamash tashvish barat biare. ama oon mesle man asheghet nakhahad bood. dooset dashtam. kheiliiiiii. behasi ke ba in karetam hatta delam mikhast nabinam badito. be daro divar zadam ke behem began in harfa doorooghe. ama hame taeidet kardan. khodetam vakoneshet kheili gheire tabiiei bood. age in harfa dorost nabood inghadr ateshit hor nemigereft. aroomm migoft yadet basheha, namardi kardi, in harfat hich kodoom dorost bood. ama vakoneshet va zire pa gozashtane hame aghayede chand salamoon motmaenam kard ke hame chi dorost boode. natijeye az in be bad ham baram mohemnist dige baram. to khoshbakht nemishi. chon kafe dast nabooodi. ama be man kheiliiiiiiiiiiii chiza yad dadi. yad dadi ke hasasiatam kam she nesbat be inke age man male kasi hastam oonam faghat male mane. hala mifahmam age marde royayim ro peida konam tabieish ine ke oon bishtar az zanhaye dige be man ahamiat bede , ama na faghat be man. hala boro begard. boro dokhtaraye pooldaro peida kon ke barat pool kharj konan. barashoon tip bezani. ke chi? sex? eshgh? donbale chi hasty az zahare khoob? hame chio ba man dashty. ama hala boro begard. bezar behtarin chizaie donyaro dashte bashi. hich kaso mesle man nakhahi dasht ke ba hameye badiat asheghet bemoone. ama dige dooset nadaram. ghalbam morde. nefrinet nemikonam. ama midoonam khoshbakhty ro nemibini.

chera

nemidoonam aslan chera shooroo kardim. age taghdir in naboood ke baham bashim chera az aval ba ham be in shekle ajib gharib ashna shodim? be zoor ke nakhastamsh. aslan az oon aval tahamolesh kardam. va khodamo gool mizade ke khodeshe. nemidooonam chera har dafe ba inkke midoonestam dare dooroogh sare ham mikone bahash vastadam. khodamo gool zadam. az chi mitarssidam? oon avalla ke az hichish khosham nemioomad. na az ghiafash na raftaresh. pas chi mano paibande khodesh kard? va chera in rabetaro edame dadam? in roohieie majara jooim khoda kone kar dastam nade. mikhastam beram ta omghesh. ke befahmam ini ke hame migam eshhge, ini ke hame migan khoobe chie? az oon aval kole delam bahash nabood vali nemikhastam delesho beshkoonam. dar sharayeti ke oon khaste ya nakhaste daem dele mano mishkoond. vali bazam khoda ro shokr. mage to tanavo nemikhasty? khob inam avalin tajrobeye tanavoe zendegit. khosh bash.