az in hame zaf motenaferam. az inke 1 lahze bedoone yadesh nisam motenaferam. az inke sobh nefrinesh mikonam o shab doa mikonam motenaferam. az inke nade ali mikjhoonam ke khoda mosakhare man konadesh motenaferam,
man key enghadr bi erade shodam? yani ta akhare omr har vaght khalam biad man bayad beshinam baraye yek adame bi arzesh gerye konam? in mazhare erade che balayi saresh oomade? chera enghadr badbakhtam ke zol bezanam be tel ke behem zang bezane? cheghadr badbakhtam ke oonn dare ba hame las mizane, hale donya ro mikone, man oonvaght hamash montazeram ke behem bezange. cheghadr man badbakhtam ke ham chin adame ghodo bi khasiati ke hichki azash khoshesh nemiad ro bayad bote khodam konam. va bayad zar zar gerye konam barash.
motenaferam az in hamme feeling baraye kasi ke sooozanish ro hes nemikone. baraye kasi ke in hame eshgh ro mibine va mige khob ke chi hala chon to mano doost dari, I owe you something?
too omram inghadr khar nashode boodam, enghadr kasi mano tahghir nakarde bood. akh ke cheghadr doost daram beram to hsahr jar bezanam, be hame begam che balai saram ovorde. be hame begam zire in sorate mehraboon ye ghalbe sange ke daem mikhad hurt kone. be hame begam, adame be khodesh vabaste mikone, ziad, ziad, bad mizane zire hame chize adam, zire ghorooor , ehsas, aberoo, va tamame arzeshhaye adam.
midooni chera ina ro minevisam?
chon dafeye pish ke behesh zang zadam va gerye mikardam, enghader saketo sard bood ke fardash be khodam goftam ahmagh be divaram khob mitoonesty begi in harfaro. divaram hamoon axolamalo ro barat mikard. ba yek tafavot: to nemishkasty pishe cheshme kasi ke liaghatesho nadare. ghorooret paimal nemishod. fek konam hadafesh ine. dellesh mikhad ghorooramo leh kone. chon mibine ehtemalan in tanha chizie ke baram moonde.
afkar tondo tond az too saram migzare. be khoda az fekr kardan be ye adme be in bi ehsasi khasteam. az tanhai khasteam. az ashk rikhtan khasteam. chera har kio ke doost dari dooost dare azaret bede???? in rasme tabiate?
khodaya khodet aroomam kon. khodaya khodet behem sabr bede, khodaya khodet ffekresho az saram biroon kon. man dige nemikasham. yani gharare ta khare omram mahi ye bar injoori too khodam bemiram?