chi shod?

nemidoonam chi shod? tasmimesh az koja oomad? kodoom badi jahate afkaresho avaz kard? baad bood ya nasim? ya shayadam tars. az? az in hame nergye voojjoode man. az dashtane chizi ke it was too good to be true. tars az inke ba man bashe bayad hame chize digaro bezare kenar. tars az dadane ghodrat . adame bartari.
ina hame khoobe! tarsam dare. koja didi ye dokhtari ro hame bekhan ama oon khod dari kone va be kasi mahal nazare? koja didi dokhtari az zibayish be onvane ye harbe negah estefade nakone?koja didi dokhtari ham shangool bashe ham khanoom? koja dokhtari tamame mehresho be pat mirize?
az ina taajob nemikonam. motejebam ke baz hesab behem rast gofto behesh tavajoh nakardam. yadete behem migofty ziad fek mikoni? yadete behem migofty hame chizo pichide mikoni? akhe pichidaast!!!! akhe ajibe!!! yeki ye shabe tasmimesh avaz she???? yeki enghad betarse ke tars tammame manteghe 40 salasho tahte shoa gharar bede? kheili pichidast yeki ke behet mige cheghad to khoobi telefono bezare zamino dige zangam nazane. del tang shodan nemikham goore babaye deltangi! mardi ci shod? marda koja raftan??? chera harchi naghesol aghle namarde gire ma miad? yeki nist bege 40 sal tanhai behet yad nadad naro nazdike dokhtare mardom o ba delam barat tang shodan goftanash ghalbesho navazesh nade?bad yeho tasmim begir ke na ino nemikham ama behesham nemigam chera nemikham.
bazam khoshhalam ke khodam boodam. sadegh boodam. khodam boodam hata age bad boodam. paak boodamo bi eshtebah. paaak. ba ye ghalbe mehraboon ke mitoone koohe sangie harkasio be larzesh dar are.
az to miporsam: hata age be khodaye man eteghad nadari, vaghean 40 sal tajrobe behet sabet nakarde ba har dast bedi ba hamoon dast migiri?

zendegi

ehsase yek tefle koochik ro daram. ke har aroosaki ro jolosh bezaran, ta vaghty ke aroosak barash ahan bekhoone va tefl ro sargarm kone, tefl ba oon ham bazi mishe. kash faghat ham bazi mishod. nemikhad bachehaye dige hata dast bezanan be aroosakesh. enghadr bahash bazi mikone va lezat mibare, ke hata biroono koocheham aroosak nabayad yek lahze azash door she. jigh haye in tefl shenidanie vaghty bozorgtara tasmim migiran ke na tefl, inja jaie aroosak nist. oon ro khoone bezar. va chi migzare oo dele in tefl lahzehaye ke hame too jash paykoobi mikonan va oon natooneste ba behtarin sargarmie zendegish, aroosakesh, bashe. hich vaght digaran fek mikonan age aroosak nabashe in tefl ba chi khodesho aroom kone? aslan aroosak deli dare? mifahme cheghadr sahebesh az boodan bahash lezat mibare?farghi ham nemikone javabe in soal az nazare tefl.hichkas nemifahme ke in tefl ba in aroosak enghadr khoshe ke aslan niazi be raftan be hich maghazeye asbab bazi foorooshi ro too khodesh hes nemikone. pas chera har chand vaght yek bar bayad tefl bi aroosak bemoone? doori baraye digaran hamoon mafhoomo dare ke too dele aroosak hast? va khaste ya nakhaste in tanha sargarmi ro az tefl ba bahanehaye mokhtalef migiran. cheghadr oon ghalbe koochikesh bayad az faragh belarze? va hichkas omghe in larzesh ro hes nakone? rasty hich kas fek nemikone ke in bache bayad az aval midoonest ke in asbab bazi ham abadi nist? va baz oon shabha saresho bi aroosak va bi ghese rooye balesht mizare va be lahzehaye ghashange dashtan fekr mikone. pas chera be in koodake nopa nabayad hagh dad ke az ehsase aramesh va ta'alogh be in hambazi tars dashte bashe? va chera hagh nemidom ke nakhad hata be maghazeye asbab bazi foorooshi sar bezane? chon ke midoone hich sargarmi moondani nist. rasty!!!! aya dar akhar tefl mifahme ke in aoosakha mooondani nistan ?