Az bachegiam ziad khatere nadaram. Faghat behem goftan do salam bood ke hame khoonamoon boodan va mano gom karde boodan o donbalam migashtan. Belakhare mano zire ye sandali peida kardan ke neshaste boodam gerye mikaram. shenidi chi goftam? do salam bood? Bad az oon mamanam mige koli tab mikardam . Ina az vaghty shoooroo shode bood ke asbab bazie jadid man, zendegie man ke bedoone oon nemikham don bashe, kasi ke hazarem joonamo bedam age bedoonam khoshbakht mishe be donya oomade bood. Hich chizi too donya be andazeye khaharam doost nadaram. Yani migam ke, mikham donya nabashe age oon nabashe. Mamanam mige hameye familaye babam migoftan na man ye chize dige am .... zendegie man be andazeye man khoshgel niist. vase hamin tamame energy sho gozashte ke eshghe man ghose nakhore. vaghty migam tamame energy yani tamame energy . yani ta in rooze roozesh , davamoon ke beshe poshte oone. delesh ghanj mire vase oon . manam doost dare ha. ama bishtar mayeye eftekharesham ta gooshte tanesh. az oon be bad har ki too zendegim oomad tarsidam ta adame jadidi bebine mano bezare va bere. In tarsbood va hich vaght haghighi nashod. CHera? chon nazashtam beshe. CHon age negah az room bar dashte shod, boridam . gozashtam raftam ta majboor nasham tb konam ye roozi ya zire sandalie zendegi ghayem sham. Hasoodi nist. age kasi az gol behesh nazok tar bege, zendegisho siah mikonam. Ama ye jayi khodamam yeki mikhastam ke behesh eshgh bede , neshoon bede ke nafasesh be nafase man bande va ghose ke mikhoram bande ghalbesh milarze. delesh enghadr baram tang she ke biad yehooyi baghaam kone o hichi nage. Man manie negaho aghooshe eshgh ro khoob baladam. Goosheye cheshmi behesh negah konan mifahmam ta tahe gharnie chi mige. tamame omramo gozashtam in khala' ro por konam. zood vabaste mishodam o khoda khoda mikardam man tamoome zendegishoon besham zood va mano vel nakonan. KHoda albate in vasat kam nazashta. Be hagh begam , too zendegie hich kasi in ghadr vaght vase mojeze nazashte ke vase man gozashte. Arezooyi nist ke be saram biad o anjam nashe. Sade begam, delam baroon bekhad shahrro az khoshk sali dar miare o taghyir bekhab shahre zire abbbb mibare az seil. SHokr mikonam ke hich ja tanham nazasht har chand kheili ghor zadam behesh.. Ama khob bachast dige . 2 saleshe . Az ame o khale eshgh nemikhad. Az madaresh mikhad. Az zani ke negashesh Tanha arameshe zendegishe.

Goftegoo ba kasi ke ye rooz tamoome zendegim bood. man har chi say mikonam ooni besham ke mikham az to feedback manfi migiram. Man az enteghad khosham miad chon behem komak mikone ensane kamel tari besham. ama bazi vaghta ba to ke harf mizanam, mibinam picture too zehnet az man keshidi ke mimoonam aslan chera doost dari ba man harf bezani. be dalayeli ke dotamoon harf zadim dar moredesh va dotamoon midoonim ma bayad ye rabeteye normal baham dashte bashim. to saram dad zadi laya make it simple, tamoom esh kon. Man goftam na kamesh konim. badam har domoon har vaght khastim ya delemoon tang shod zang mizanim. rabetamoon por az mane' shode baram. Aval ke bayad joloye khodamo begiram ke vaghtayi ke nahayate ehtiaj ro daram behet tanha basham o behet nagam. chon adate behet tekye kardan ro mikham az saram biroon konam. Vaghty be khoda ejazeye ertebat ro midam, aksol amal manfi mibinam. shekayati nadaram va toro ba hameye khosoosiatet ghabool kardam. ama bayad befahmi ke taghriban har bar ke behet zang zadam ba raftaret neshoon dadi ke barat mohem nist ya age baham harf zadi khsohhali ya tamayool be harf zadan toosh nemibinam. ya marizi , ya high .

stress preparation

NORMAL-> NORMAL EHSASATI-> ignore,this is part of his game to get what he wants, vel kon normal bashim behtare. Lets move on. you with your happy life, me with mine. gonah dare azyatesh konim. eshtebahi boode ke nabayad tekrar she. ignore-> you already know you were a phase, you were another game. be happy ke tamoomesh kardi. khosh begzaroon. Nl bash. pleasure inke ignore kardi va man mad shodam ro behesh nadde ke befahme yadesh nakardi. Fun -> be fun. How much touch? Nl. Stay away if he tries to be in appropriate. you were part of a life of a player. you were one of the million. he makes promises for ppl to be around while he is living his life. Be strong. Show yourself you have great self-control. SHow him he cant do whatever he wants whenever he feels comfortable. What has he been doing last few wks??

my dad always says

babam hamishe mige, harja ro dobare mibini khoda ro shokr kon. shokr kon ke in nemato behet dade ke baraye dovomin bar oonja ro bebini. shayad hekmat dobare aashegh shodane man ba to hamin boode.shayad bayad esbat mishod behem ke nemitoonam. akhe midoooni to in salha hamaro ba to moghayese mikardam. hamash migoftam na to ye chize digei boodi. khodet ke mano tooshak endakhte boodi ke eshtebah mikonam ke TOHMAT!!!! zadam behet ke ba kase digei boodi. khodam ke khodamo gool mizadam, migoftam enghadr donyamo ghashang karde boode ke hatta be badiash miarzid. in forsate dobare shayadkhodesh ghanimaty bood. baraye inke bebinam kheili bolhavas tar az in harfast. baraye inke bebinam hata koochiktarin jai too donyash nadaram. hata baraye 14 rooz. khob in hamoon chizie ke too zendegi hamishe azash farar mikonam dige na? ke bebini roo zendegie kasi koochiktarin arzeshi nadari. hata baraye 14 rooz az 30 rooze omresh. ba oon hame ashki ke barash rikhty hichi barash mohem nabood. ke vaghty dari gerye mikone baz ham khodesho bezane be koocheye ali chapo faghat ba halate tahajomi raftar kone. midooni chera? chon tanha chizi ke too in donya barash moheme baghaye khodeshe o bas. vaghty mohemtarin chiz barash raze baghae khodeshe dige mohem nist barash ke deli ro beshkane, ya vaghty shekast hadeaghal azash deljooi kone. in yani kamale namardio khodkhahi. mehraboon hast . kheili ziad. ama ta jai ke be khodesh hal bede o be nafesh bashe. migam khodaish shayad in shanse dobare baraye in bood ke mehresh, ya fereshtei ke az roohesh too zehnam sakhte boodam az bein bere. ke befahmam cheghadr bi arzesh boodam barash hamishe. ke bedoonam tamame manafe'esh laye pahashe o bas.

wrong place, wrong time

zamane badi varede makane badi az zendegish shodam. oon avaz shode. kamelan. be ghole khodesh kole zendegisho avaz karde. oonvaght man oomadam migam hamoon bash, manam hamoon meghdar doost dashte bash. be ghole khodesh 2 ta bazi mokhtalef darim mikonim. man doosesh daram o mikhamesh ba tamame voojoodam, oon na. az mosahebat ba man lezat mibare. yani age ham sohbate behtari peida kone, oono entekhab mikone. az doost dashtane ziadish va del tang shodane ziadish va dar eine hal nadashtanesh mitarsam. az inke far'i too zendegisham va oon asle zendegime mitarsam. vazeh va roo baz dare neshoon mide be onvane ye ex mikhad mano. va man daram kamelan roo baste say mikonam hame chish besham. bazihaye mokhtalef.aslna hes mikonam nemishnasamesh. ye adame jadide. in ehsasaye jadidesho nemishnasam. kasi ke tamam modat khodesho bara esbat mikard khob kamelan avaz shode. niazi be esbat kardane khodesh nadare. badtarin chiz ine ke midoonam bedoone man ham zendegish hamchin avaz nakhahad shod. faghat khoda midoone cheghad doosesh daramo che isarhayi hazeram bekhatere boodan bahash bokonam. i guess too late. I guess oon vaghta ke bayad mikardam tarsidam. alan dige oon nemikhad. he has moved on and so shall I. faghat nemidoonam chera tavanesho nadaram. chera ba inke midoonam far'am too zendegish, chera ba tamame vojood doosesh daram? ensani natavaan va zaeif shodam. joloye adami ke aslan ahamiati nadare barash. shayad rast mige o in harfa barashnarahat konande o azab dahandast. ama man aadat karde boodam bahash harf bezanam va oon komakam kone. fek kone dige dorash gozashtedoreye naz kardano naz keshidan. doreyi ke har kar mikhastam baram mikard. va man hamoonja moondamo oon rafte joloye jolo. ebhad jolo ke dige nemitoonam tashkhis bedam ye roozi male man boode...

taslim

zendegi yani taslim. yani beshini bebini sarneveshtet chie. taghdiret chie. yani midooni, age mikhai mitooni joonam bekani, dasto paham mitoooni bezani, ama baz javabesh yekie. ooni ke oon mikhad. ooni ke khodesh mikhad. yani bege che bahash bashi che nabashi farghi nemikone. oon paroo ro mizane. hala feshar biar ke mikhaish ya nemikhaish. hala hey fek kon chi mishe akharesh. hey naghshe beriz. hey zoore alaki bezan. age gharare bahash bemooni, khodeto pareham koni akhar pishesh mimooni. age gharar bashe beri, zanjiram bebandan be pat vaghty zanjir poosid bayad raahi shi. faghat aroom bash. dandoon roo jigar bezar. saboor bash. bayad paroo nazad vaaa daaaaaddddd

jomalat

First of all!!! I have a news for you. Ill be done with fucking med school in 4 dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyssss!!! Yeah. you heard me right. 4 more days till im a doccccccccc!!!! RESPECTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
2nd: I am going to IrANNNNN in 6 days. freaking awesome. until May 31. Kimia inja tahna mishe:(

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